post thirty-one

This is me , skinny and short , yet blessed with the sincere people. I had been posting about people and not much about things because i appreciate feelings . Things does not have feelings and they could be discarded at the speed of life , so i'm trying so hard to get attached to things. I guess it is not that good to be too attached to human beings but at least they left me with memories while things that humans inverted spoiled in no time. And i wish i had a slogan to lived by , i believed in  "no pain and no gain " but i always failed to follow that . i just got to do what i preach , i hope i can achieve that one day , slowly as time goes by  .

post thirty.

this two people are the ones i cannot live without. 

They are the ones who brought me up and dressed me up , most importantly feeding me to stay alive until now. I am so glad i have them in my life. My dad left to overseas when i was only 2 years old , and he stayed alone here for 10 years , just so that we can eat and study . That was one of the reason i was not close to my dad but now it is getting better i guess. Then after , the lady beside me was the one who stayed close by my side and brought me up , molding and shaping me up to who i am today . I know i disappoint them so many times , but they never give up on me and loved me endlessly . I did not know how blessed i was years ago , making fuss and making them cry , doing things they did not like . They are my forever . I hope they will stay healthy and well for more years to come .

post twenty-nine

This two brothers are all i could ask for in 20 years of my life. They were my parents when my parents are away , they are my sisters when i go shopping with them . They will always get for me what i want and amend my ways . They always listen to my wants . And afterwards , they will get it for me . So sweet of them isnt it? I always longed for sisters but they are much better . I am truly blessed because i get beyond what i wanted. They were not only nice to the family but really welcoming to the guests, well , they always took care of my guests. The best part is that i can always approach them when i have problems with my studies , they are really good with studies , especially the eldest one and i am so grateful for that .

post twenty-eight.

Laughter is a good medicine.

I am always grateful for this clique of mine who i am close with for the past 5 years. They always took up space in my heart even though we do not meet as often as we used to . They are my laughing medicine , they always cheered me up when i am down and upset with my personal life. They were always there to make me laugh like nobody else. I can be who i am when i am with them . We always looked out for each other too and i hope we still do in the future. They are the best people i came cross in my 20years, i hope we will stay strong till the end till we grow old . It is really sad we do not get to meet often to catch up with each other life but you know , i will always be here for you guys . I love you girls . We had our flaws and we looked pass what we are weak in but being there for each other.

post twenty-seven.

She deserve the best teacher award. It was her birthday when the picture was taken. She was my form teacher for 3 years and i can tell you she was the best. She taught us and helped us if we had problems. She was always there for education aids and also personal problems. Furthermore she did not scold us often but treated us like her own little children and im so grateful for that . It had been a while since i left the school but she always remain to me as the best teacher . When i wanted to learn english , she even made time for me on weekends so that she could help me . I can tell you she was more than a teacher . She was like a sister when i asked for relationship advices. She always supported us in whatever we do . She scared us before we take out o levels and still encouraged us even though we did not do well. She is the best.

post twenty-six.

I like boxes , they look neat and tidy as the shape is fixed . I can never get enough of those . Boxes make my study place neater . I will be just so happy to go daiso and get all the cute little boxes on display , they are so adorable and you cannot resist them . I have this tiny weird feelings toward boxes . One day i went to daiso to get some art supplies because everything at the shop was 2dollars! I guess everyone can afford it . So , the main thing i was searching for was chinese ink and this cute little box was attracting itself to me and i could not resist so i bought it and i was so happy for the whole day. Girls just love shopping isnt it?

post twenty-five.

This post is for my brother who believed that my english was awesome that i could catch all the lyrics on a song that i liked . That was the time when "bad day- Daniel powter" was popular and i really liked his song and i listened to it everyday and sing along too . My brother had a part time job and he was not always home . I was schooling too and that must be the reason why . The only time we can actually sit down talk is on sunday whereby we go church together . On that day i was singing aloud the song by Daniel and my brother was amazed by it . He asked if i actually know the lyrics then i was in a daze and just said "uh" and when i think of it now , i was just blurring out words those sound similar and i did not know the lyrics . Sorry , brother  i am still working on my english.

post twenty-four.

I will always remember that when my flight touched the ground and i almost shed tears for joy because for i know that i am back to my hometown . That was the happiest moment of my life . The most exciting part was seeing my grandmother , uncle and little cousin . ( just the thought of it make me miss them more ). The food were main reason to be back too , i was pampered a lot by grandmother , aunties and uncles . I was asked what do i want to eat every morning that i got so mad . The best part was also that i get the chance to take care of my grandmothers . Moreover , the quality time spent with cousins were awesome too , it was also because everything was so cheap compared to singapore ( obviously right? ) . My 20th birthday was so good that i get to spend time at orphanage . I miss home . 

post twenty-three.

I really enjoy creative thinking than any other modules , it is mainly because its interesting . You do not know what is going happen on the day of that module , but its a good experience . Especially the first lesson where by we get to know more of our classmate by finding a friend who does different things and getting their signature , it was so cool. Through that lesson , we get to know more about each other like the classmate of mine who plays the piano and she is someone i hang out with nowadays. creative thinking lessons are like playing games , oh well i guess thats what we need to think creatively i guess . okay i shall play more games. hehe.

post twenty-two.

This friend of mine really changed my opinion of Malays , well its not that i am racist just the impression was not good . I really felt uncomfortable with malays since primary school because my class had a lot of malays and therefore they are usually bonding . The worse thing was that , they make fun of me like asking me say nonsense things and acting like they like me when actually they just abandon me during recess. So, usually i will stick to chinese and i did not really blend in but it was much better. Fasting forward , i was in secondary school and i met this malay friend , i was in hesitation to make her my friend or not because of past incident , well , guess what , we eventually become best of friends and she is like the nicest one though she can be mean in a playful ways. My opinion changed or maybe i grew up!

post twenty-one

I love pens . i loved pencils when i was young and always kept the best ones because i wanted to use it last . And now i love pens , i have like 15 pens or more that are new and i have not use it . It is not that i enjoy writing , I just love pens , it makes me look smart , well not really . I recommend the sharp pointed pens because it makes my handwriting neater, i really hate those very thick ended pens because they usually ended up making my handwriting so fat and i dont want that . The reason might be due to my childhood , i always sharpen my pencils when ever i can and now it goes the same . Furthermore , i really respect the person who created refill pens , because of that , i saved a lot to buy more pens . Teehee.

post twenty .

hello, meet the girl who is really strict-forward. She is really unique and nice lady i swear . She had this flaw that i could not really understand but at the same time we did not trip over it to break up our friendship. She had been a friend of mine for 5 years and going 6 . That is definitely a long run for a friendship . We had our happy and sad moments , and y'know what? she's always there , everywhere , just to be my listener . She is also someone who protected me when someone physically wants to bully me . She is really a strong lady i ever met in my life . I sincerely can say that she added more colors into my life . I can see that my life will be grey without her . She just got to be there for me no matter what and i always know she will , during good and the bad times . She will.

post nineteen

The last day of school is always but that year was so different because we're leaving the protected zone to leave for the another level of learning but much more challenging . I will always remember the day i graduated from secondary school , wearing the uniform for the last time . Wearing uniform actually make us feel as a whole , this i have to agree . Now that i think about it , i wish NAFA had a t-shirt for everyone so that we can feel the togetherness . You know , you just know the feeling of it when you're wearing the same thing as one . Nonetheless im grateful for the last speech given by the principle , "looking back , moving forward " , from my point of view , it is an motivation as to look back at the mistakes yet do not stay at the same spot and move forward, towards success , our dreams and etc.

post eighteen

black heart usually represent something bad. I will not deny that but this black heart has got to be left behind in order to move on with life . To me , this black heart most probably represent hatred . I want this to related with my life . I used to dislike my family because i felt that they were all against me . Furthermore i would get caned for small things like not wanting to answer my dad , definitely it was one of the reason to hate my parents more . I was so disobedient ( now to think about it ) . I regret what i did in the past and i can say that my heart was in the darkness . Definitely i am so glad to be back to the bright side of life and more cheerful now . I am so glad i got over the darkness and now in the light . That was why i always believed that phrase " there will be rainbow after rain " .

post seventeen

This post is dedicated to my little sister in christ who was the exemplary for me . Oh yes , she is younger than me by like 2 years but i admire her like she's one senior. She is tiny but had strong will in doing her best in whatever she does . I admired that a lot as i could not do what she does . The picture above was sent from her from London . It was so sad that she had to leave us and migrate to London but i felt happy for her as it was a great opportunity for her future . I was pretty envious of her at first but it is not easy for her . The first part of blending in is that hardest but i know she will do it well . She showed me that with the will to do well , definitely we will do well . I found out about this on the day of our o levels results , her results were beyond her expectations and wow, i was very amazed by how she got this far , of course! i was very happy for the great results. see you again some day , cher.

post sixteen

As i was researching for my 3D project , i thought of undying roses. Since young i loved flowers as much as my mum did . We had some roses and orchids in the front yard of my house . It was very fascinating to see the flowers grow as each day , it is like giving birth with out pain . We took care of it with water (feeding) and then the flower will blossm into something really beautiful . I loved that moment , seeing the flowers grew and admiring them . Sadly they all withered after not long . I would be sad to see those dead petals on the flower till eventually there was nothing left yet another flower growing . I think human beings life is about the same , we were cared for and grew up beautifully , then there was a moment for us to shine thenafter the death . I guess we should make every moment worth .

Post fifteen.

This girl in the photo is my very first friend i ever had in singapore . I met her at church . We were so shy and did not talk to each other because she arrived here first , so she had friends while i did not . Sadly i could not fit into friends those are at church too . Nonetheless , on one particular sunday , she talked to me and we actually get along pretty well , since then we started talking on the phone like almost everyday . I called her everyday and we talked about everything from what happened in class to what were we doing at the moment . We get along pretty well and never quarrel since then . She was one of the reason i enjoyed my stay here , she made everything better by staying by my side until this day . She would understand if i could not meet her for some reasons and we get along the same the next time we met . It might be so because we are the same age also . Well , i love her . 

post fourteen.

Family photo that i did back in the days of my primary school life. OH, the reason behind making this collage of my family was to be reminded of them each day incase i had accident. I know it sound so dramatic but who knows, it might happen. ( not that i want it to ) . I miss those days in primary school . I do not meant that it was good days . I missed it because i did not know how to appreciate those days . My english was bad and all i said were "yes" and "no" . It was basically because i was from other country and since young , i do not like to say anything to get humiliated . It was so hard for me to go school because i had no friend and everything was a total change . However , the people on this picture did not change and stood by me , i am so glad i get through those hard moments with them by my side. thankful.

post thirteen.

This little baby is not related to me but i adore her as much as i would like to adore my littler sister . She is only 1 year plus but she is like a little communicating machine at home. She would be sent over to our house because the parents are working . Nonetheless , the main point is that , even though this little girl cannot talk yet , she is the point who bring smiles to people . Her parents and we are of different races but we could smile and laugh over her baby respond . Everyone in the family loves her and the smiles that she bought bring us closer to her parents who are non related , we could talk about her for pretty long . We always try to teach her little things like waving and saying "mama" and so on . This picture was taken at my work place and she is just so curious about everything and it is tiring to babysit .

post twelve .

hello , today I'm going to talk about one of my first experiences in my life. Oh yes, as u can depicts from the picture , i went to my friend's sister engagement . The sister also happen to be some one who was manager of a place i worked . okay, lets get to the point , so it was my first experience attending malay engagement . The moment i arrived at house ( oh yes , they get engaged inside the house ) . I was overwhelmed with excitement as i waited for my manager . Unfortunately , we couldn't meet her straight away because the groom family came ( i was pretty lost about it too . ) So, the clique and i went downstairs to buffet ! It was so delicious. About half an hour or so , the groom's family arrived to the same venue to get their tummies filled . They were with baskets full of gifts , such as cakes , chocolates , watch and some malay traditional clothes if im not wrong. Afterwards , it was our turn to see my manager , so as we entered her room , "wow" it was filled with gifts too! As conclusion , i think malay engagement is so different from how western do it . Anyways, it was great experience and glad that she gotten a lot of gifts!

post eleven

sup?!?!

Did the picture made you smile ? It definitely did to me. This picture was sent by a friend like 3 years back. I was really sad that time over a friend or boyfriend ,which i could not remember. Nonetheless , i was very sad . So , on that day itself i was in a very sad mood and i could not talk much . My close friends were worried too and i did not utter a word . That day was long and tiring for me ( probably monday blues too ) . I went home that day and did chores and everything yet still feeling moody . As i was having some free time , I went on to windows live messenger and there was a friend who was online and just sent this to me . My mood suddenly lift up and i was smiling and then laughed afterwards because i find it very funny to smile to a computer. That was one funny friend that i treasure indeed.

post ten.

Anybody still remember this web ? I know there were like myspace , tagged and etc when it comes to social net work , a few years back . But right now , i doubt many people will remember this site . It was my very first social net work online . I rarely used it and i had so much time for studies . I guess its all about discipline on where we spend our time on . Anyways, back to the social network , i was all so blur about this web , and now time has changed , people will connect through each other through , twitter , instagram and FACEBOOk . Did you see my emphasis on facebook? Yes, everyone is addicted to online network, and they are practically glued to their mobiles . Is that bad or good ? there are pros and cons but i would like to emphasis on the cons , because of those network , people are lacking in communication and not to mention how bad it does to your eyes (staring at those tiny weeny words on the screen ) . I would like to suggest that you should have limited time for your usage online.

post nine.

Today i'm going to talk about this crazy cute little girl of mine. Her name is CZQ ( not going to say in full ) . She was just a classmate of mine until we begin talking about our first boyfriend . I always thought she act cute all the time and we did not interact so much until come to the topic of love . It was only 2 years ago that we become close friends , i can count on her for almost anything . She was in despair when i first approached her and talk to her , come on' she was young and was in love. Teenage love affairs , so she was really depressed and i sort of like counseled her . That was where our friendship blossomed like a flower and still watering and keeping this friendship till now . so glad to meet a friend like her who is nice and helpful yet stingy ( she will be rich in no time. )

post three

hello, today was pretty tiring yet a happy day for me because i went shopping with my mother. The best thing was that, she bought me 2 blouses of my choice. I was so happy and the next good news make me elated. Thats why i made a quote today " just a hello away". Firstly i got to tell you that i had a friend i lost contact with when i was in secondary school. She went to Australia without me knowing . We have not talk to each other since then . I missed her , a lot . But i had her number but we did not talk to each other for like 4 years. Nevertheless , the silence took a turn today , i went on to whatsapp and just scrolling down to her name and i took up the courage to say hello to the friend i have not talk for 4 years. The best part was that she replied me as fast and we were talking to each other comfortable,i hope i can keep this up . Take this time to talk to a friend whom you have not spoken to for years .

post eight.

the new trend maybe ?

Is this creative? Hey, it might becomes a trend in no time okay ? This friend is really funny , and she is really amazing at making people laugh . I remember this moment vividly , it was during physics class and practically it was pretty boring class . By the way , lets just say this girl on the picture is A okay ? So, me and my friend was just talking , ignoring our task( maybe one of the reason i did badly for this subject. ) , which was to do a worksheet . Then i poked a pen through A's hair , she was oblivious of it at first . My friend and i started laughing sillily . That is when A realised that we did something silly and she started laughing too . To our surprise, what she did next was taking our stationery and start poking through her hair too , it was funny and we joined in to put more. ( teehee ) memorable moment.

post seven.

the back.

hello. we meet each other again! Please kindly say hello to my all-time favorite cartoon character. I will be really sad if you do not know the name of this cartoon after seeing the back of his . Anyways , meet spongebob . I did not have any favorite cartoon character since i was young , i was okay with any cartoon character but this little yellow thing melt my heart like no one else . I started liking spongebob while i was in secondary school , i do not really have the exact idea of why i liked him so much . The main reason must be his retarded faces i encountered online . He had this retarded side of him which cheered me up when i am sad . Furthermore he had this color of yellow , which really brighten up a gloomy mode from my perspective . From then onwards i went crazy over spongebob and still does of course. i love spongebob.

post six.

first experience @ night festival.

It was my first experience to night festival, one comment is that , "AWESOME!" I never expected to face this kind of great festival . I knew about this even through my classmate who was surfing through the net and then "ta-da!" she shared about this with me and i was like "okay! cooool! lets go!" I was pretty excited . One of the guilty point about the night was that i skipped class to enjoy the fun at night festival . okay . Lets move on about the night festival , it was a crowd as expected because it was Friday,(TGIF yeah.) By the way , the event was held on one stretch of all the museums in singapore. All the museums in singapore are pretty close from one another . There were performances going on and the above picture was featuring glow in the dark make up, which i thought was very unique. and there were a lot of things to see but we missed most of it.Definitely, i will make more time for this event next year .

post five.

cute?

please say hello to this cute little baby. I am so happy that i have someone like her in my life. She is my best friend i could ever ask for. By the way , she's 18 this year , the photo above it just a picture of her when she was a little baby . She was so cute then and still is .A little introduction about her, her name is jasmine and i met her in my secondary school and we been friends for 5 years going to 6. She is like my little sister , she is funny , entertaining and she knows when to be serious . We can talk on the phone for like hours and talking about anything and everything . Most of the time we think alike and can read each other mind without talking. Friendship can be amazing when two people work hard for it together. To my surprise , we never quarrel and get along very well. I do not know if it fate or what . We're still in same school even after graduation from secondary school , just that she is in second year while i am doing my first . She is someone i can really count on as a friend or a sister or even as a boyfriend . 

post four.

phyupearl.

i miss her. oh yes, this was our nickname for the whole of secondary one, she's the one on the right and her name's pearl! phyupearl it was. she was the first friend i ever made when i first entered secondary school. we were all lonely souls when we first enter secondary school,but thankful that i had her for the whole of secondary one. we did everything together , like going for lunch and even chose the same CCA . it was memorable especially because she was the very first one to be my friend . the days of secondary one passed and the sad part came, we lost contact . it was mainly my fault as we did not keep in touch after our secondary one days. it was when she moved up to express stream while i was stacked at normal stream . i talked to her lesser and i had new good friends . i did not intend to remove her from my life though . furthermore , she went to overseas to study in the mid of secondary school life which i did not know till last year. It was sad , till today i always think of her. i miss you , pearl .

post two

milooooooo

milo is one of my favorite milk-related drink which i have it almost everyday. this drink is something i can never reject. It was quite simple how i met Milo because i hate milk. i had this phobia to milk because it is white in colour. i know it sounds ridiculous but i cannot stand drinking it. i mean it is white color which is like glue and i will keep thinking about it which led me having a hard time to swallow it when i was forced to drink milk in my primary school days. it was horrible okay. i'm still not use to drinking milk but Milo! i can never say no. furthermore it was all thanks to my wonderful mum who will keep refilling it in the fridge for me to drink in the morning. it was because i will leave school without drinking anything if there is no milo. well, i'm really thankful for having such a wonderful mum.

post one.

Great-grandmother & grandmother. 

that day was my 20th birthday and i always remember it as the best day of my life!

because i never get to spend my birthday with them for more than 7 years,trying to catch up studies and struggling here. It is not easy . living miles apart from them . oh how i missed them and how much they would have missed me.

By the way, a little introduction about my dearest grandmothers . the person next to me is my great-grandmother as you can see her obvious white hair and the skinny and lumpy expression of her. Thereafter , the person next to her is my pretty grandmother (she get those compliments a lot ) . She is a person who would ask "what do you want to eat today" every morning to meet my cravings. she is just so lovable. some day i wish that i will be able to fly back to them to take care them.